1. |
The Kettle And The Pot
02:47
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I'm not sayin' that I've never been in your shoes
But I've never walked a mile in them
And I'm never gonna act like I know your blues
But I know there'll be a violent end
Though I never thought you'd given everything
I hope the best for you
Whatever the future brings
I'm not talkin' bout whether you're saved or not
I'm not talkin' bout the state of your soul
But if you think that you're the kettle and I'm the pot
You're forgettin' everything that you stole
Though i never thought we'd live to see this day
There's nothing I can do
Nothing I can say
If I hung around until the very end
You'd see another side of me
But I knew you were pretending to be my friend
I knew that you would lie to me
Though I never thought that things had gone this far
You can't turn back now
I guess this is who you are
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2. |
In The End
02:23
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Help me to see
What it's all coming to
Crumbs on the table
And mud on these shoes
Treading so long
I can't see where we've been
Tracks on the trail
And nails digging in
Who's to say it's all for the best in the end
Some hands will rob you
And some hands will beg
Some say they'll stay
Til the last dying day
But if actions can't speak
And words cannot do
What ten thousand armies
Can't even fight through
Who's to say it's all for the best in the end
Who's to say it's all for the best in the end
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3. |
Fool
07:10
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I don't remember what you said
But I won't forget the look on your face
I bet you didn't know how much
You made me feel like I looked out of place
Spillin' my guts
Onto the floor and out the door
It's not easy for me to do
I know you know this
Even though it seems as though
It's so easy for you
But i'm not angry and you're not cruel
Cause it's not your fault that I feel like a fool
All the embarrassing things i do
Remind me of you
And if you hate me, well that's okay
Cause it's not your fault I get so carried away
And all the terrible things you've said
Are just in my head
I can't believe when you insist that all of this
Doesn't mean a damn thing to you
I know that isn't fair
I'm paraphrasing feelings
That's a mean damn thing to do
Spillin' my heart into your hands
And then you walk away
You say you've gotta go
I know you know more than i give you credit for
I'm sorry
Give me time to show
That i'm not angry and you're not cruel
It's not your fault that I feel like a fool
All the embarrassing things i do
Remind me of you
And if you hate me, well that's okay
It's not your fault I get so carried away
And all the terrible things you've said
Are just in my head
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5. |
Unrequited
02:13
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Sorry I didn't call you
Sorry I didn't follow through
I know you offered all of you
And I left you by yourself
You were in love with me
I was in love too, you see
But the person I had fallen for, she
Was all-in for someone else
Now you feel like I did
A love unrequited
You're trying hard to hide it
A conspicuous kind of hell
Sorry I wasn't fair to you
I hope you know how much I care for you
I want to call more than I dare to
Because I hope that you're doing well
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6. |
Mexico
04:01
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You could see me reaching
So why couldn't you have met me halfway?
You could see me bleeding
And you could not put pressure on the wound
You could see me breathing
And you still kept your hand over my mouth
You could feel me seething
But you just turned your nose up in the air
You only think about yourself
You only think about yourself
You better bend before I go
On the first train to Mexico
You only think about yourself
You only think about yourself
You better bend before I go
On the first train to Mexico
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7. |
Bravery or Exploitation
03:16
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Walkin' away would hurt you badly
But maybe not more than I've already done
Is it worth staying just to see if I can do a little better,
Or am I standing in the way of someone?
Someone else
Who will finally treat you right?
Someone else
Who won’t make you feel alone out of spite?
Is there some beauty in my desperation?
When I'm depressed you say I'm being so real
Would it be bravery or exploitation
To tell you all the stupid shit that I feel?
Do you find
You can trust me more when I am in pain?
Do you mind
If I close this door so I can stay sane?
Well I’m young enough to be uncertain
But old enough to be weighed down by fatigue
And when I wonder if there’s nothing but the void after my death
I can’t help but feel a little relief
If we lived
Would we ultimately want it to end?
If we lived
Would we hurt each other again and again?
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8. |
The Garden
03:09
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9. |
Like A Phase
02:42
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We never prayed to the same god
Never imagined the same dreams
And even though we were so loyal and true
All our love was never quite what it seemed
It wasn't fake, it was just flawed
We kept it going for days
And when those days turned into weeks and months
We still knew that this was only a phase
We never cried at the same time
We never laughed at the same jokes
And it would not be unkind to say
That I could not get along with your folks
We never were on the same side
Or even on the same page
But even though we were so madly in love
Looking back, it all feels like a phase
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10. |
Jesus Said
05:20
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Jesus said that if I’m full of love
And trying to have faith
Everything that isn’t fair in life
Can one day be made right
But every day I’m more exhausted
Because I’m running out of strength
Looking forward to a paradise
While I can’t survive the night
Jesus said “Father forgive them,
They don’t know; they’re blind and weak”
But you all know what you’ve been doing
And you’ve convinced yourselves it’s fine
And Jesus told me that if you strike me
Then I must turn the other cheek
But you’ve been striking me for decades
And I am gonna lose my mind
Jesus said. Jesus said. Jesus said. Jesus said.
Jesus said. Jesus said. Jesus said. Jesus said.
Jesus said just take a look
At all the lilies in the field
He said they don’t toil or spin
Their Father sees them try to grow
But Jesus I am not a lily
And I don’t know how to feel
When my roots are torn, my leaves are bent
And I have no place to go
Jesus said He is the way, the truth,
The life, the great I Am
And Jesus said that through His grace
He can sanctify a man
But when I see torches in Charlottesville
It makes me wonder if we’re all damned
Cause there’s so much violence in His name
And the blood is on all our hands
Jesus said. Jesus said. Jesus said. Jesus said.
Jesus said. Jesus said. Jesus said. Jesus said.
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11. |
Don't Wanna Go
04:12
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I don't want to understand
And I don't want to shake the hand
Of the guy you said had treated you
So bad
And I don't need you inviting me
Unconsciously reminding me
That you think I've no right to be
So mad
But thanks for the consideration
I mean, I threw away your invitation
But in a strange way it makes me
Kinda glad
Because at least I know I was on your mind
Even if just for a moment of time
And I know that sentiment is
Kinda sad (but)
The first time that we kissed
You said you weren’t expecting this
But while we’re on the floor we might as well
Just dance
And the first time that we fought
You said you never would have thought
That I’d get jealous if I saw y’all
Holding hands (well)
No, I don't wanna go
And watch you marry the man that
You left me for
No, I don't wanna show up playin' nice
No, I don't wanna go
And watch you marry the man that
You left me for
No, I don't wanna go, don't be surprised
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12. |
Postcards
04:05
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It was wintertime
On the day you died
In late December
Just after Christmas night
It was cold outside
I still remember
And I wonder what all the songs
That you never got to sing
Would have been like
And I know you weren't a prophet
But I wonder if time will tell
That you were right
Never softspoken, you
Were always bold and true
Vulnerable and forthright
Our world was broke in two
On the day that you
Were drowned in moonlight
I know we never met
And maybe we never will
In another life
But i wonder what all the stories
That you never got to tell
Would have been like
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Chris Wei Iowa
phd candidate @ univ. of iowa; author; editor; teacher; tutor; artist; postmormon; socialist; and, sometimes, musician.
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